March 16, 2005
I had to remind myself that such a thing existed. Oh me, oh my. I just can't imagine I did that. After all the effort I took to make it seem almost non-existant. Brr. I still have no idea why I can't get over some freaking... game? Why, why, why? I guess it's because you know what it feels to be at the top. You know everything - well, almost. You know much much more than others. You just get this happy feeling playing it. Yes, I was just running away from reality and that was my heaven. I so don't feel like being here - right now. I still do keep those papers of points and names of people I flower to. I don't know why I wrote them down - all in a spare school exercise book. That's basically the only thing I'm left with and I'm never going to throw it away - at least for now. All was happy and gay, until my world came tumbling down, down, down.
I feel so much better. =)
At least I still keep in contact
with ONE of them.
Although we're not as close,
but it's still fine. =)
Ah cut the crap. =)
I'm still listening to Spirited Away.
The midi that's in my blog.
It just gives me some peaceful feeling.
Does anyone know how to convert midi to mp3?
Help? I can't listen to it in my MP3. =(
I'm just helplessly falling into a pit of boredom.
So they're going to Pulau Ubin and I'm not. =)
Would very much love to go but I can't.
But it's okay.
I really hope I can go into RP -
into that course, score well
and go to Uni!
Right now, I just feel that all these
is just for face value. =(
I just feel a little tinge that
I want to go there because I want to.
I shall make it into my long term goal.
I felt so upset not being able
to jump 8grades for my Maths. Bahhh.
I know people's response would be
something like I should be happy
that I already don't get F9.
But that's not the point -
not when you have such high expectations
of yourself - one that nobody knows.
When I grow up, I'm going to get myself
a puppy or a Chinchilla. [[spelling?]]
One that will be close to me
and rest on my shoulder and all.
But then again, I don't like the air con.
I miss Rice. My baobei!
I want it so badly but I just know
it'll mean more nagging if I bring it home.
I miss Pudding too, but not as much
as me missing Rice. <3
It's 3.25AM and I'm not in bed yet. Boo.
Bla, bla.
I'm waking up early morning tomorrow. =D
Apart from the 6.30am these few days,
it's been ages since I last woke up
in the morning. Hehs.
Got to sleep soon. Hehs.
I don't like the feeling of being alone
in whatever part of the house this is called
using the computer. Hehs.
Off for now. =)
-nIx- @ [[2:19 AM]]
I had to remind myself that such a thing existed. Oh me, oh my. I just can't imagine I did that. After all the effort I took to make it seem almost non-existant. Brr. I still have no idea why I can't get over some freaking... game? Why, why, why? I guess it's because you know what it feels to be at the top. You know everything - well, almost. You know much much more than others. You just get this happy feeling playing it. Yes, I was just running away from reality and that was my heaven. I so don't feel like being here - right now. I still do keep those papers of points and names of people I flower to. I don't know why I wrote them down - all in a spare school exercise book. That's basically the only thing I'm left with and I'm never going to throw it away - at least for now. All was happy and gay, until my world came tumbling down, down, down.
I feel so much better. =)
At least I still keep in contact
with ONE of them.
Although we're not as close,
but it's still fine. =)
Ah cut the crap. =)
I'm still listening to Spirited Away.
The midi that's in my blog.
It just gives me some peaceful feeling.
Does anyone know how to convert midi to mp3?
Help? I can't listen to it in my MP3. =(
I'm just helplessly falling into a pit of boredom.
So they're going to Pulau Ubin and I'm not. =)
Would very much love to go but I can't.
But it's okay.
I really hope I can go into RP -
into that course, score well
and go to Uni!
Right now, I just feel that all these
is just for face value. =(
I just feel a little tinge that
I want to go there because I want to.
I shall make it into my long term goal.
I felt so upset not being able
to jump 8grades for my Maths. Bahhh.
I know people's response would be
something like I should be happy
that I already don't get F9.
But that's not the point -
not when you have such high expectations
of yourself - one that nobody knows.
When I grow up, I'm going to get myself
a puppy or a Chinchilla. [[spelling?]]
One that will be close to me
and rest on my shoulder and all.
But then again, I don't like the air con.
I miss Rice. My baobei!
I want it so badly but I just know
it'll mean more nagging if I bring it home.
I miss Pudding too, but not as much
as me missing Rice. <3
It's 3.25AM and I'm not in bed yet. Boo.
Bla, bla.
I'm waking up early morning tomorrow. =D
Apart from the 6.30am these few days,
it's been ages since I last woke up
in the morning. Hehs.
Got to sleep soon. Hehs.
I don't like the feeling of being alone
in whatever part of the house this is called
using the computer. Hehs.
Off for now. =)
-nIx- @ [[2:19 AM]]
